However, I am very thankful for the medicine that seems to be helping me with the pain. Before I started chemo I had this horrible pain behind my right ear, in the back of my head, and that pain eventually spread clear across to the left ear. I thought I was going crazy and I didn't even know how to describe the pain to my doctors at first. But, my rheumatologist knew immediately that it was from the nerves in my neck that were being affected by the psoriatic arthritis.
I am thankful for my doctors and the medicine, but my real faith is in my Lord Jesus. He is the one I look to for strength and peace as I journey this pathway of my life. Frankly, I think I would have gone crazy if I did not have Jesus. I have been stuck in this house for months on end, (except for my journey to Texas, when my son was hospitalized) and I have cabin
fever. Every day I promise myself that I will wake up and I will journey outside, but those
days have been few and far between.
Even so, God has given me the grace that I have needed to go through these days. He has also given me a husband that is so understanding and helpful through this all. Don will clean (not like me, but I've learned it doesn't need to be perfect. I just need to be thankful!) he tries to cook and he is just there for me when I need him. I am very thankful for a loving husband who not only loves me, but loves the Lord as well. I know he prays for me and that
is one of the most important things he does for me.
In these days I truly do not know how people who do not have a personal relationship with Jesus cope when sickness or other trials that come their way. He is my strength, my peace and my refuge, I run to Him and He is always there.