1 John 5:14,15
GODLY FACTS - NOT FEELINGS - NOT FEAR
Alright, so then this is our assurance in the relationship that we have with God: If we ask Him anything that is in agreement with His will, He hears us! Hearing us, we have the certainty that we will receive what we have asked of Him.
For me, these two verses meant and demanded a strong faith in the FACTS of God's Word and not my FEELINGS which may vary and fluctuate from day to day.
I asked God to first of all, "Forgive me for failing my son!" Then made this promise to the Lord, I said "Lord, bring Jimmy back to you and I will pray for other parents who are broken, knowing their kids have an addiction and yet they have no idea where their kids are in order to help them!"
You see... I live on the east coast and my son Jimmy lived in Texas, there was no way I could even look for him. So I started to pray for other parents and their kids who were going through much of the same thing my husband and I were
JIMMY IS FOUND BROKEN
One particular night I began to pray and before I realized it, I had prayed the entire night not just Jimmy but for ALL the Prodigals, ALL the teens, and yes, ALL the adults who were hoodwinked and bamboozled by the devil himself. Fooled into thinking an overdose would never happen to them.
A day or two later, we received a call from our older son Chris saying, "Jimmy is in jail!" I did my research and found Jimmy was facing ten felony charges that in Texas could put him in prison for life.
I cried out to the Lord again, "Lord, you told me that You were going to use him on the day he was born!" The Lord came right back at me, "You don't think I can use him in PRISON?" I then said, "He's yours Lord Jesus, your will be done in his life!"
MY GOD WAS BIGGER THAN EVERYTHING
Once again, people told me I would never see Jimmy again, they also said he would in prison for a very long time. It reminded me of Job's friends and how they tried to comfort
him. I quietly listened, but I never responded, my God was bigger than that!!
We had no way of contacting him, but at least I knew he wasn't dead in a ditch. And then, somehow... Jimmy had someone... get him out on bail and once again we didn't know where he was or what was happening to him.
When he didn't show up for his hearing... a bench warrant was issued. Two weeks later the police picked Jimmy up again. This time it wouldn't be so easy for anyone to get him out as his part of the bail was one hundred thousand dollars.
JIMMY WAS IN JAIL WITH NO BAIL THIS TIME
Jimmy was going to be in jail until ALL his cases were heard. But, then something wonderful happened, Jimmy called home. I can't begin to tell you what it meant to hear my son's voice once again!
We spoke everyday as he would put his air force check into one of our old bank accounts that was supposed to be closed. However, this way he could pay for his own commissary needs and the phone calls that he made to us.
DETOXING IN JAIL
The first two weeks of our telephone conversations were ambiguous to say the least. Jimmy was experiencing dramatic anxiety and agitation from withdrawal symptoms, he didn't even sound like "our Jimmy!"
The physiological changes in his brain and body, altered the his ability to have a normal conversation with us. He would have days where he was euphoric and days where he was down and depressed. Still, we encouraged him to call us any day or any time.
CALL ON THOSE WHO WOULD PRAY
Now I was told by friends and family that coming off such withdrawal symptoms would probably kill him. I quickly learned NEVER to listen to what people said to me,
"WHOSE FAITH WAS WEAK."
We called our prayer groups and told them exactly what we were going through. I didn't care what people thought of us as parents, I knew Jimmy needed specific prayers for his exact needs.
Jimmy has a fight in jail...
The Lord had given this song to my husband and I
many years ago. Still, the words had a message of HOPE!
When we don't understand, when we don't feel God's Guiding Hand... We can still BELIEVE He will bring us through
anything! So here's our song:
I BELIEVE - Don & Judy