away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there
be any more pain:
for the former
things are passed
I LOVE YOU &
I MISS YOU
Nothing could have prepared me for my little brother's death last year, on this date, September 13, 2018. I talked with him just a little before he passed away and he was feeling fine and he had plans to go play "Disk Golf!"
Death is so deeply personal and stunningly final, nothing can emotionally prepare us for its arrival. Death brings peculiar thoughts and such absolute finality.
Most of the time death seems far off into the distance until it hits you straight between the eyes and then it becomes so close and personal.
AND THEN THERE'S GRIEF
Death brings with it grief; which puts each of us on our pathway and "a long lonely journey." Grief isn't easy to talk about with most people. It's an emotional response to
loss and it can be very personal.
I was shocked and completely unprepared to believe
what I had just heard on the phone. My little brother
had just died but it just wouldn't sink in!
I had just talked with Joe a little while ago and he was fine,
he was getting ready to go play "disk golf" which he loved.
We talked a little more and then said our goodbyes
and I thought he'd be off to play his disk golf!
Out of all the seven stages of grief, the only real one I feel is LONELINESS, most of my family live in Pennsylvania and we are in South Carolina. On top of that, we were expecting Hurricane Florence and so the little family I had
here had evacuated.
If I went through "Shock and Disbelief" that passed by quickly. However, I've been "stuck" in that loneliness having not been able to attend his services or be with family and then most
of my family here had to get back to work or school.
I've tried to wrap my head around the fact that my brother is gone, but there are times I still go to call him or send him a message via Facebook Messenger or text. Sometimes it just doesn't seem real... until today... the very
All of a sudden the feelings are right here again... I look at the clock and I remember every moment from the time I called him until I received the call that he passed on. All I know is it hurts and I feel all alone with it.
THANKFUL WE KNOW JESUS
I will say this, there is certain peace that I feel, being a Believer in Christ Jesus, I know where my brother is! He is in heaven! And, I also know that someday we will be reunited.
I think the loneliness is because our culture seems to want us to get past death fairly quickly! We are presumably allowed to take two maybe three weeks and then "get over it!"
I will never "get over my brother," he was my friend, my confidant and my joy! I am just waiting for the day
that God calls me home and after I meet my
Lord and Savior...
I'm going to find my brother (and all
my family members) and give them all a great
big hug... never will we be separated again...
never will the teardrops fall again...
we will have an eternity to love
and cherish one another!
My friends, I AM HEAVEN BOUND!